Poetry 19: My Song

I found myself singing a song, I really don't know why.
It's hard not to see, that this thing I've been doing is meant for me.
I'm singing a song,
And it's not ordinary,
For I'm not a singer, and not even close to a great music lover.

It's smooth and comfy,
It gives me serenity.
Eases my depression,
But struck my heart in every direction.

For any reason,
That I don't know why,
But will you come and try
To listen to my song for a while

I'll sing my song
Please feel each line
Be with me,
And give me time
To understand the song
Don't be blind. . .
Open your heart
And give a reason to find,
What i mean in each line

Poetry 18: In Loving Memory

Thank you for thy abode you sheltered me
Thanks for the belongingness i felt from thee
My mom's away yet you fondled me
So i live each day with glee

In thy humble home we shared
We had talks, we laughed, and we cared
How i long to see you once more
It'll be fine knowing you're home

Though at time we had our flaws
We never did see you with claws
Yet you opted just to face
Still accepted us and embrace

Now, it's you i'm really missing
I know you're just there and still watching
Like a floating leaf of a Lily
You're with HIM now in eternity.

Poetry 17: Losing Everything

I've been all over town looking for you
Called you at home
But there's no one to answer.

I can't wait to tell you
What i've come to realize
How much i love you
And that you mean
The whole world to me...

I decided to go to church
To thank God
For giving you to me
And to show my way to you.

A wedding is taking place
When i got in there
And i thought...
"I can't wait to exchange vows with you"

I imagined myself
Walking in the aisle
While the man I love
Is waiting for me at the alter.

My heart skip a beat
As i look at you
Dashingly handsome
In your three piece suit.

My tears fell
No matter how hard i try
To hold it back

As you kiss your bride
To seal your vows...
Then you looked my way
And smiled at me contently.

The next thing i knew
I'm stumbling my way
Back where i came from
For i couldn't take
The pain inside...

How stupid of me
To still believe
You'll wait for me

Stupid of me
To do nothing
When all i had to do
Is to fight for you.

And now it's too late
Too late...
For i already lost you
My heart
My world
My everything
Forever...

Poetry 16: Between Sleep and Walking

I wished to wrap my arms around you
And protect you from a world that's vile
But forgot about the demons inside you
Inside your head, and full of wiles
I wished that I could maybe reach you
Make you see what my eyes see
I want to help take your masks off of you
To show how majestic you can be
But you are stubborn and full of pride
You do not ask and rarely plead
And you tell me that you'll pass this tide
Alone, but my love there's hardly need.
For I am here, you have my hands to share
I'll stand by you and the problems you bear
Because I love you and this is true
I'll stand by you until this is through

Poetry 15: Obsession

All I see is you

Every time I close my eyes

All I see is you

You make my feelings rise

All I need is you

You are everything to me

All I know is you

You’re the answer that I seek

Poetry 14: Quixotic Fantasies

At night I sit here, in the corner of my room
On top of the bed and under the sheets
It feels safe under my warm coccoon
Away from the world, a silence to keep.
And in this cold dark night, I hold you tight
In this cold dark night, I'm wishing
That there's a you and me
How I long to see.
In this cold dark night with me.
In my sleep I can dream
In my sleep I pretend.
That there's nothing wrong
No damn rules to bend
In my sleep I can dream that,
In this cold dark night, I'm holding you tight
In this cold dark night, away from them
That there's a you and me.
An us we long be.
So stay in this cold dark night with me.
But the night is cold
And my heart is not as bold
And reality screams grow up.
And my eyes they sting
From the tears they long to bring
Still my heart, it screams don't stop.
And I'll stay in this cold dark
I'll stay where you can hold me tight
So stay in this cold dark night with me.
And I don't care about the rest
Cause I know you did your best.
Here in this cold dark night, with me
So stay here in the cold dark night With me.

Poetry 13: Wedding Bells

eyes shut, hand clenched over heart

you can't love and its tearing me apart

tears fall, lips part and shake

bells knoll, was it all a mistake?

this white dress is bearing me down

i need you but you're never around

the bouquet of flowers you sent are now dead

all i have are dried petals instead

hands shake, i drink the pain away

i try but the pain is here to stay

heart tires, and i lose to the will to fight

dont worry, tomorrow ill be gone from your sight