Unconditional

I didn't fall in love with you because I needed you or because I needed to feel being loved. I didn't fall in love with you because I needed someone to hold or cherish in my day-to-day life. From the moment I met you, everything stopped and your voice was the only thing I hear. I never saw it coming.. how you became someone who is so important that I was scared to even have the thought of losing you.

Every time I was with you, I felt home and safe. I wanted to make you happy and contented for the rest of our lives. It was a thought I never knew would even cross my mind because you were doing so much for me and you didn't even know it.

However, as time went on, you slowly drifted away and the saddest part was I couldn't do anything to stop it from happening. You left and moved on and I was left where I was. I couldn't move as if time was frozen and my heart was breaking. I was trying everything to stop my world from crumbling. Waking up everyday with the thought of you not here with me anymore was hard. As I silently cry feeling my heart breaking, know that you will always have a place in my heart whether I like it or not because I have never felt such feeling when I was with you. And although this is tearing me apart, I try to smile to put up a front so that you won't see how broken I am.

Heart-breaking but worth to share

I heard this message today saying: "They said you will fall in love three times in your lifetime" and it hit hard because it got me thinking...

The FIRST one is called puppy love, the fairy tale love. It's when you first experienced all the sparks and goosebumps. The time when you are willing to give everything, wear your heart on your sleeve. This is usually the type of love that hurts you for so long that you thought you have given up on trying because fairy tales do not exist.

but then...

You love for the SECOND time called the intense love. This is when you have learnt from your first and you have built yourself whole. It's the one you thought will last turning your world upside down that may even cost you everything. And when the worst has happened and it ended, this lingers longer than your first. You will feel your heart breaking into a million pieces that you thought you might even be dying. This is what will cause so much pain that most people will find it hard to get back up again.

however, here's the thing...

When you love for the THIRD time, this is when you love unconditionally. It's the one you didn't see coming. It's when you will feel secured and willing to let everything go because everything feels right. The one love that when you already know what you want and makes you feel at home.

If you are reading this, you are lucky if that person loves you in these times. Make sure you treasure them as they do to you. But, if you have loved past the third time and it didn't worked...focus on self love. Focus on self development. I know it is hard because I have felt how it feels to lose the third love of your life. Your world may seem like it's crumbling down and you want to scream but there's no sound when you do. Your eyes have tears that just falls endlessly until your they are red and puffy.

It may not be the best time to tell you that there is someone out there for you because reality is, it is hard to find a genuine person who will treasure you. As heart breaking as this time would be, pray and tell yourself that everything will be better. Channel your energy to self development because no one else in this world knows your worth more than you and even though it's hard and you are already in pieces and it may seem impossible to put yourself back together, be that piece of yourself that will become the strongest so that when the time comes that you have successfully built yourself to a better version of you, know that you are more priceless than anything in this world has to offer.